Okay, well… really discouraged.

Starting to feel like I’m not good enough again. Like what I’ve done hasn’t made any impressions and that my efforts were all forgotten. I thought that I expressed myself enough about how I cared about issues. I thought that maybe all that I sacrificed last semester (commuting by bus, all day parking tickets) just to be able to contribute myself, would be acknowledged in some sort. Grades aren’t the only factor in determinating what we are capable of and our success. it’s all about having passion, a genuin drive to improve and establish who you are, and dedication..

It makes me scared to think that I may have wasted my energy. I know it’s not “wasted” because I gained so much personally. But little recognition matters too.. just to let me know I’m doing something good.. to shows that it’s worth it. I’m scared and confused because I know that I’m not the only one feeling like this. I feel like part of my motivation is gone. Just a part. It’s only because I’ve been through everything with her from the very start. We are sort of a dynamic duo in this. It’s not fair.

I just hope that things will fall into place. Things happen for a reason. I’m very grateful for a position that will, forsure, help mold me into a stronger person and create someone who can meet or maybe exceed expectations.. hopefully. Despite the unexpected turnout of things, I will do my best.